I've been through a lot the past few days. I can't sleep or eat and I'm feeling really down at the moment. I'm trying to keep myself busy and distracted from the truth but it hurts so bad I can't hide it anymore. When you've relied on someone for so long, they've been like your best friend, the person you've spent all your time with - what happens when thats all gone? I find myself constantly looking at my phone hoping for a message or a phonecall but I'm just alone now. It's breaking my heart so much. I feel like I'm lost and don't know who I am anymore. I know it's for the best but I feel so much regret, I know if it continues it will just become a vicious circle and I can't deal with that. I need to find strength but I'm failing so bad right now. I put on a front around people, but deep inside I find my mind wondering and I start thinking I shouldn't of made the decision I did. But then I think about the negatives and tell myself it's for the best. I feel emptyness inside, it's hunger but not for food, but for my best friend to come back.
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